This ask was from Smidgepigeon but I accidentally hit publish and screwed it all up. Smidge gave me 1, 5, 17.
1. The meaning behind my URL
I like pigeons. To me pigeons are symbolic of the everyman. I feel kinship with pigeons in our commonness and and how extraordinary things come from seemingly common creatures. And I like underdogs and the misrepresented. So that’s the pigeons part. And I’m not all together sure about “take a walk”. I just liked all that walks represent. Maybe blowing off steam or heavy thinking or journeying. And I also think birds walking around is about the funniest thing to witness. Things built to fly bumbling around on little stick legs. I very rarely feel as smitten and joyful then I do watching a bird walk. So I try to remember that to dampen my cynicism.
5. Tattoos I have
Woo! You ready for this?! I’m going to go into super detail about the tattoos’ meaning because I’ve already listed my tattoos before and so might as well say something new. (And I love talking about tattoos)
(1) My first was a raven with a red balloon on my left leg. The image is from a Sandman book where Mathew joyfully flies off with a balloon Dream gives him after starting to shrug the thing off as silly and trivial. The quote around it is “This is the theatre. We will believe you.” Which is from a play where they are rehearsing a play in prison and a character feeling weak and hopeless asks what’s the point of rehearsing a play that no one will see. He asks “How can I play captain Brazen in chains?” The tattoo is suppose to represent that childlike, captive heart in us. The one we cover up and ignore. It’s sort of permission to love what is simple and beautiful for it’s own sake and for our own sake.
(2) I have a tree on the other outside of my left leg. It’s leaves go through all the seasons and there is a quote from my favorite Simon and Garfunkel song “After changes upon changes we are more or less the same.” It’s from “The Boxer”. I always thought the song was about being made for something. Having a passion ingrained in you until it becomes you. And through all the hardship and abuse you take to love that thing you were made to do you could never turn away from it. Because it is you.
(3) I have this little bird man on my right leg. He has a robin’s head and a man’s body with a little speech bubble that says “you might have rhymed”. He suppose to represent the sidekicks. The quote is from Horatio, the robin is from Batman and Robin and the body I just lumped together Henry Clerval and Watson and others. I have this idea about sidekicks representing a proportioned world. A hero (or maybe not so much a hero) needs a tangible representation of what the world is worth because we can’t objectively look at something so massive and expect to relate to it or feel for it. Instead this small little character that is vulnerable but admirable, that the main character adores carries the weight of the whole world because they are a representation of what is good and what is vulnerable in it. And they are there to humble the hero. Make him human, bring him back to earth. I guess I always wanted a sidekick. Someone that would make the world worth salvaging. And I needed to be humbled.
(4) I have pigeons on my arm walking about with the quote “What sort of heroes are we?” The quote is from one of Chekhov’s letters. He was saying how he was being criticized for not writing heroic characters. He responds saying that we are not heroes. That we are impoverished and deluded and depressed. He said he needed to write man as he was and only then can we see ourselves and change. Again pigeons represent the everyman to me. The significance of the quote is a little harder to explain for me. I don’t really write heroic characters but more than that I liked that it is given permission for things to be. For a representation of things that are. How a person is with no denouement. No pretty bow conclusion. No moral. Lives as the are, as we exist in them.
(5) On my lower back I have a moustache with a top hat and monocle with a hand tipping the top hat and a banner that says “Be a gentlemen”. The tattoo was actually an evolution off a joke about the phrase ‘ass hat’. I also sort of felt it was symbolic of capping off a period of time where I was becoming more comfortable in my skin and in my sex and in myself about myself. That I am a gentlemen if I want to be or as much of a lady as I choose to be. I am whatever I would like to be. It was a very happy tattoo.
17. A fact about myself
I take my bra off a soon as as I get home. Regardless what time of day it is or whether or not I plan on venturing out later.